I’ve spent the last couple of days thinking about what the Taylor fandom has done for me. I honestly don’t know where I’d be if it wasn’t for the people I’ve met through the fandom and without Taylor herself. When I first discovered Taylor on myspace I was 15. It was back in the time that there weren’t many Swifties out there and we were (and still are) a happy little family! Its been 9 years since then and it’s safe to say that everything has changed! When I found out I was pregnant with my first baby aged 17 my world literally fell apart. I had no friends, I was consistently being told I was never going to make a good mum, that I was never going to accomplish anything, that I was just going to live my life unemployed and living off benefits. For a time I believed this. When my little girl was born I was in a really bad place. So much so I had spent the last 7 months considering giving her up for adoption. But Taylor gave me the courage to face up to life, head on and give myself a chance. The people I’ve met through the fandom gave me all the support I was lacking from my home environment and I did give myself a chance. Throughout my little girls first 2 years of life I grew emotionally and mentally as a person with the support from Taylor and her music. So much so that when I found I was pregnant again I wasn’t afraid. I had proved to the bullies and everyone that I could be a good mummy. I love my kids so incredibly much. They complete me they really do. And so does Taylor to an extent. This may sound really weird but everything would be different without her in my life. I probable wouldn’t have my two gorgeous kids. I probably wouldn’t have made it through the past 7 years of my life. I feel like I have grown up with Taylor. There isn’t a day goes past that I don’t listen to her music. Taylor has also given me my best friends. We met online when we were fangirling over Taylor’s music and blogs and are still friends to this day. We may only see each other once a year but we talk all the time and are always there for each other. The song Mean sums a lot of things up for me like it does for many people. I always listen to mean when I’m having a low self confidence day as it reminds me of everything I’ve achieved. I don’t care that I’ve taken the unconventional route but so what I’m a 24 year old who has qualifications, who doesn’t live off benefits, who has a full time non-minumum wage job but most importantly I’m a 24 year old with a beautiful 7 year old daughter and a gorgeous 4 year old son.
So basically I just want to thank Taylor Swift and everyone in this fandom who has supported me through everything never questioning why I chose to keep my children at such a young age. You mean the world to me. You’re there reason I’m still standing. I love you all so much. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. <3